It’s been so hard without you rich! I thought things would get easier as time passed. But it’s only gotten harder knowing I would have been ok with you down here next to me. Everyone says it gets easier when you lose someone. They definitely lied or didn’t know how it felt to lose someone like you. I can’t wait to be up there with you dad and little baby joe. I can just imagine the party’s where going to have. The cuddles we will make up for and the eternal love and happiness I’ll feel once I’m back with you all! I miss you so much everyday.

Hope you had a good Christmas up there bro, you mean more to everyone than you know. I love you.

Heya rich and everyone reading this. Iv had so many down days since your death but in my darkest hours I picture you with your hand on your hip your head slightly cocked to the side with the expression on your face as if to say “really?” As if to say “you know what I’m thinking right now! Are you making me proud? Are you making me happy with your thoughts and actions? Didn’t think so now make me proud and move forward and I’ll be beside you every step of the way! I promise!” So day by day rich I take little baby steps toward a happier life with you always in mind. I’ll never forget you but who could with your infectious happy personality? And positive outlook even on the darkest of days. Always here with me in mind and spirit. Thanks for looking out for me rich. Xx